Friday, September 30, 2005

Breathing a little easier...sorta

Sorry about the lack of updates. I have been insanely busy at work for the last week or so. Not much poker to speak of either, my wife's birthday was Wednesday so we had to have like 9 different celebrations.

The good news however, is that I've made a nice little rebound and am now sitting at $230 in my bankroll. Still not great, but far better than where I was. I've been playing the $11 SnGs on Empire pretty much exclusively. I like the quick structure, and the flat out madness of the players.

I'm almost done with the Matt Matros book. It's been very good so far, I think the book combined with my not playing as much poker lately has helped me really calm down and focus.

Now that Bash at the Boathouse is over, and I've missed it, I'm concentrating solely on trying to make it to Vegas in December. Hopefully not only will I be able to pay for my trip, but also take along quite a bit of spending money as well with Poker winnings. We will have to see, as I don't feel nearly that confident yet.

Not a whole lot of other stuff to say really, sorry for the lack of any real content. I promise to make it up to my 2 readers sometime this weekend with a decent post of some kind.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Make it stop...

I've had some losing streaks before. I've had my bouts with variance before. I've seen a lot of pretty big downswings. None of that crap could have prepared me for the absolute ass-raping I've experienced over the past 5 days.

I sit here now with $144 in my bankroll. I've experienced the most ridiculous beats, the most intense tilt, and mass quantities of frustration. My game has gone to complete shit, and I'm just ready to be done with it. I'vew tried playing limit, I've tried playing no-limit. I've played SnGs, Multi-table Tournies. I've tried it all. I can't win at anything.

Just to give you an idea. Last night in a $25 NL game. I get pocket Kings UTG. I raise it up to $2. There is a raise and a re-raise after me. These are fairly typical $25 NL players, so I figure I've got the best hand here. We end up all-in on the Q high flop. Pocket Queens take down the $71 pot. The BB had pocket Aces. Pocket Kings, Queens, and Aces all in the same hand. This is the kind of shit that's been happening to me.

Another example in a $10 SnG. I get pocket 10s on the button. I raise to 200, 1 caller. I suspect he has AK. The flop is J high. I push, he calls. I was right, he has AK. The turn is a Q and the River is a 10 for his Runner Runner straight over my set. I can'take it anymore. My pocket kings go down to QJo when he spikes his 3rd Jack on the River. Aces cracked 4 times. It goes on and on. And now my bankroll is in utter disrepair. $144. My god.

I am going to keep at it, eventually thing have to go my way right? Right?

Friday, September 16, 2005

Bleh...

Still sick. Still sucks. It couldn't possibly have anything to do with the mass quantities of beer I consumed at the Clutch show last night. Not at all.


Not played much poker recently. I did manage to lose my $100 buy in at Caribbean Sun before clearing the bonus. How sad is that? Those NL games are soft, I'm just an idiot. I did start up an Empire account finally. Deposited my $300 on Tuesday. I'm down about $40, but I feel better with a larger bankroll at my disposal. I forgot how insanely great the games were at the Party skins.

The reason for not much poker is two-fold. First, I'm sick. I hate being sick. I get all whiny and bitchy and I don't think clearly when playing so I just avoid it all together. Second, my mom showed up sort of unexpectedly on Wednesday night, so I've been pretty busy with her. My wife gets home tonight after being in St Louis for the last week for training. It'll be nice to have her home again.

I finished the Stu Ungar book. It was pretty depressing, and enlightening all at the same time. Great read, and good life-lesson. He won and lost over 40-million dollars in his career. Good fucking grief. I've started reading the Matt Matros book. I like the way it is written as it's sort of a hybrid between a strategy book and a story book. Easy to read for sure. I'm not too far into it, and the beginning of the book is definitely geared towards beginners, but I just enjoy reading the guy's stories from college and other life-experiences.

Some good news came out of me not being able to go to the Bash at the Boathouse. I can now go see Anthrax in Cleveland the night of the 24th with the original line-up. I know Al and Bad Blood will be proud of me as I am screaming for them to play Medusa from the crowd.

I feel so shitty for having to dip back into my 'regular' funds to replenish my bankroll. The good thing is that the money isn't that big a deal, but it's still frustrating that I've dropped almost the entire original $300 I deposited. That's poker I suppose. The way I lost my final $25 buy-in at Caribbean Sun was just more of the same stupid shit:

I was in MLP with A7 of diamonds. I limp, guy on the button raises to $1, 2 callers including myself. Flop comes Axx with one diamond. He bets $3 and I am the only caller. turn is another blank, and no diamond. I decide to make a stab at it and bet the pot. He takes an insanely long time to call, but does. I figure he has an ace with a weak kicker as well, so my rationale is that I am going to push him off the hand on the River no matter what. River comes Queen. I go all in for about $12, again he takes almost his entire allotted time to make a decision, and with so little time left I figure he is going to lay it down. He does not, and calls me with AJo. This is a classic mistake, and one I cannot seem to get away from. I could have folded to a large River bet easily and saved myself half my buy-in. But once again the poor decisons keep coming. I vow to turn this shit around.

I have a home game this weekend. It's with a bunch of guys I've never played with before and one of my friends. He says that there is one guy that is coming up from Georgia that is a HUGE donator. I hope to make up some of my losses then, after I see my Buckeye become victorious on Saturday afternoon. Until next time, good luck out there.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Uggg...

I'm sick, being sick sucks. Being sick, and at work, REALLY sucks. But enough about me being a whiner, on with the content...er...sorda.

Had another winning day yesterday. When I say day I usually mean 'couple hour session'. Unfortunately I do not have a ton of time to play, which really makes losing difficult on me and my bankroll. It feels good to be playing No-limit again, full-ring games are a big change for me though as I've played mostly 6-max games recently. Calling raises with A7 is a bad idea, but at least it only took me a couple losses to figure that out again.

Busy as hell weekend. The Obituary/Napalm Death show was flat out amazing. Dead to Fall opened the show and they were just fine. Napalm Death played over an hour as did Obituary. My ears are still ringing, but it was WELL worth it.

Saturday was much drinking and Buckeye football. What an EXTREMELY frustrating game, I am overjoyed that this was not the weekend I decided to start betting on Football. OSU is a great team, IMHO they are far better than Texas. We should have won by 14 points, were it not for some extremely ill-timed dropped touchdown passes. Buckeye football is frustrating enough to kill a young man in his prime. I'm pretty sure I was near-death in the 4th Quarter Saturday night.

Unfortunately I am not going to be able to attend the Bash at the Boathouse due to an extremely inconvenient vacation that my boss is taking that weekend. Since I am on a small team it is impossible for me to be out the same time as another of my teammates. I told him to skip the cruise and come out to Philly with me instead, his dumbass turned it down.

So now I am focusing on December. Still going to try and win myself enough money to actually go on the trip. I'm up to a whopping $90 or so in the bankroll...ugg, how depressing heh. Wish me luck.

Friday, September 09, 2005

Pfft, you cannot leave that easily...

So the other day Daddy tried to stop writing in his blog. Stupid ass should've known better. After many comments and some people holding their blogs hostage. Daddy is back! Go to his blog right now and read his 'come' back post.

In other news, I actually won last night. Nothing huge, but about 1 and a half buy-ins at the $25 NL tables at Caribbean Sun. I was patient and made some good plays, I was WAY overvaluing my open-ended straight and flush draws during my pitiful losing streak. Now that I think I've plugged that leak I can return to some normalcy around here. Don't count on it though. Mainly because...I'm not normal.

You know what, I'm having a good fucking day, Daddy is back. It's Friday. My boss just told me that I just got a fucking enormous raise that will take effect on my Oct 1st paycheck, instead of at the end of the year. Obituary and Napalm Death are in town tonight! AND, to top it all off, my Buckeyes play in what could be the biggest game of the season tomorrow night at 8pm vs Texas. I think I'll start drinking right now in preperation. Have fun, and GO BUCKS!!

Thursday, September 08, 2005

An epiphany...

Last night, while trying to get my new puppy to pee OUTSIDE instead of in the fucking house, I had an epiphany. I play poker like a retarded jackass. I don't know why, I just do it. I am tilting, I'm calling when I know I'm beat, I'm trying to get cute and bluff or slowplay at the micro-limit games. In short, I am doing EVERYTHING wrong.

With my bankroll hanging in the balance, I've got to figure something out, and quickly. I played a little $25 at Caribbean Sun last night. I actually did fairly well, ended up winning about $15, and then of course, losing it in a horrible crash-n-burn session that rivaled the Hindenburg. If I was capable of holding onto any winning sum for any amount of time, I wouldn't whine so much. Wouldn't that be nice?

So, I told my wife about the Vegas Gathering in December. She gave me "the look". which means if I am going to go it's going to have to be entirely funded by Poker Money. So I better get on the stick if I plan on going. Someone sign up for something under one of my affiliate links! It's for a good cause, or something...

So I am going to try and take my 60-some-odd dollars and turn it into a Vegas Trip. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

More of the same...

So I decided to deposit another $100 this weekend into Caribbean Sun Poker. I got a killer Rakeback deal, so I'll probably be playing there quite a bit from now on. It's part of the Cryptologic family of sites, so a lot of Europeans play there. Great software in my humble opinion. The losing however, still continues.

I cannot seem to break out of my slump, first of all, I've been playing above my limit. $1/$2 limit is not the ideal game for a bankroll my size. Especially when said bankroll has shrunk below $100 total. Ouch. To be fair, I have taken some insanely brutal beats this weekend. It's certainly not doing anything for my self confidence, nor my bankroll.

I'd really like to concentrate on some Sit n Gos. It seems as though Caribbean Sun isn't quite as plentiful in the SnG department, so I've not been playing many. And my Stars bankroll is so low, and their SnGs so long, I just don't feel comfortable there. We'll have to see what the future holds.

I'm about three quarters of the way through the Stu Ungar book. It's been excellent thus far, I highly recommend picking it up. I'm trying to decide if I want to Al Can't Hang's bash at the boathouse party later this month. Philly is not too terribly far from me (about 500 miles), so I think I'd probably drive the whole way. Maybe I can convince Iggy to ride with me? I did not get a chance to go to the Vegas Gathering back in June, nor the Bradoween gathering last month. And from all the trip reports I've read from both events, I feel as though I'm really missing out. Besides, I need to sit down and have a musical discussion with Al and Bad Blood.

That's it for now. See ya at the tables!